failure

I am a failure.

I have failed my friends, my family, myself, my God.

I have betrayed more people than I can count, for my own purposes.

I am a liar, an adulterer, a fraud and a coward.

My biggest failure though? I fail to embrace my second chance.

I refuse to believe Jesus when He cries "It is finished".

Still I strive to prove myself, to stand out from the pack... to be known for my successes and to desperately hide my failures.

I have stopped believing that the cross is enough. I have tried to add another chapter to God's law. I heap these coals on those who observe me.

I am forgiven.

I am a forgiven failure.

I am going to fail again...

and again...

and again.

But I will be forgiven forever.

I will be free forever.

I am a free, forgiven failure.

That is better than being a success any day.